Life is hard isn’t it truly I just do not know what will happen next only that my hope is to get through it.
Sorry I have not been here of late Facebook is easy from phone to check on those on my list but I can not blog from it yet.
Still sitting with Mom for 10 hours a day with just under a hour each way to travel from my place not complaining though as it was 2 1/2 hours each way when she was in rehab.
Still sitting is taking a toll on not only my knees but with her still in a cast unable to use her $200,000.00 knee it is getting crazy :(.
Then Friday night my man and best friend called me while I was with mom and said he lost feeling in left arm and hand I thought stroke and begged him to call 911 but he chose to go see his primary care nurse who then called me to inform me they were calling 911 and sending him to hospital mind you I am all alone with mom and unable to leave. I still don’t drink or have gray hair but I swear there may be a chance for both.
Sister in law came in and I took off for home and hospital. First I had to let the pets out and then feed them. I called a friend to bring me to pick up his truck at doctors office then it was time to drive further east to see what was going on with him. It was so late in the day I had just missed him in ER and had to wait till they had him in ICU before seeing him which by the way almost did not happen as visiting hours were now over. I walked in to seeing him lying there and so scared and worried he was not using what little oxygen his heart was making to think clearly he told them he wanted to die. REALLY? Not on my watch! I asked what was wrong and they said one part of his heart was not talking to the other half he was in big trouble and he had already refused a way to help himself. I begged him to stop worrying and let them help him and in the end he did.
They placed a temp. pacemaker to make the two halves of the heart get along I got the call just before 1 AM that it was a success and his heart rate was now 80 and not the 25 I had last seen him with and them with a crash cart ready to save him over and over till a team could be called in on a Friday night to save him.
He hates doctors and hospitals I explained we all do but to be happy when they can fix a problem so dire as him within a hour he should be thanking not only God but all of them who even had me scared.
Last night while getting into the hospital parking lot the phone rings and it is Mom in tears. Seems her 14 year old house cat taken from his home to live with my mom at my brothers place had been allowed to exit the home. He doesn’t know the world outside and as of last night still no kitty. Mom is so sick with worry and I am so sad as I know this will be yet another huge setback in her plan to get well. I always say my prayers for others and never ask anything for myself but today I am asking for no more bad news here or in the world my heart just aches.
So if you think I have been ignoring you I haven’t been I just am never here to catch up with all of you. I hope you are well and staying safe.
xo
My cat better be good she is 14 and wise but there is still evil that lurks waiting to pounce on her 😦
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I hope you are well and things get better.
Thanks HUGS
Awe ! Eunice, I am so sorry to hear such bad news, you must be heartbroken and exhausted. I sincerely hope your Man and your Mother are soon on the road to recovery and you can feel better yourself, it is such a worry for you .I wish I was there to help in some way. Please don’t worry about your blogger friends we all know we are in your thoughts anyway. So take care. Hugs
from Rita.
Well I miss you all. From my phone it is easy to pop on a photo from the camera but all else hard xo thanks for the well wishes just wanted to let you all know at the same time where I am 😦 xoxo
Oh Eunice, what hard days you are having, and there’s no easy way to balance them. During all this, don’t forget to take care of yourself, too.
Will do I am the one out of all of them that want to live 🙂
This news I didn’t expect – I’m so sorry Eunice. It just keeps on coming, your words show the tired and exhausting toll the stress is taking on you. Your family and you are in my thoughts – I’m hoping everyone soon recovers so that you can have some peace and have the stress ease up. I’m worried about you – take care.
Thank you Mary I am eating good and can not help but sleep lol so I am OK promise I paint to relax now 🙂 xo
Thanks goodness for painting – there is something to be said for that. Perhaps your most calming pieces are coming to life.
Oh my dear Eunice, I am thinking of you and your family. Hope your Mom heals soon, and your Man too. Take care of yourself. You must be exhausted with all the travelling and worry. Hugs. xxx
Thanks Cathy feel like I am trucking again 🙂
Oh, what a terrible time you have had. I hope things will greatly improve with your Mom now and that your man will mend well, and you can find some time to relax with your kitty and your man too. 🙂
xo thanks so much Dor
Dear Eunice, I am so sorry. So much scary stuff happening all at once! Don’t forget to take care of yourself too. I am sending hugs and good wishes for you and your whole family.
I’m so sorry to hear all this sad news! I hope you’ve been able to take care of yourself through it all and that some good news will come your way soon!
Eunice I am so sorry for all that is a concern right now… I’ve said a prayer for all… even the kitty to come home… Diane
I catch glimpses on Facebook, Eunice, but I don’t use it too often. Enough to know that life has been a seriously bad roller coaster for you. Sending hugs and very best wishes.
Sounds like you’re hanging in with mom no matter how tough it is…. and I know you will never regret it!
My mom passed 2 1/2 yrs. ago & now my younger sister is gone (6 weeks ago). Cancer took her at an early age, after tormenting her for a decade.
It is so hard to see our beloved suffer.
It sure is sending you a big HUG so sorry to hear you lost your sister and that she suffered for so long 😦 We only have one mom and when they are gone we are left with memories I must make all the new memories I can I know how lucky I am. XO
You have a good heart & a positive mind.
You go!!!! xoxo }} back at you!